I want to work as a freelancer; I would like to help others, but I want to do so on my schedule. I am falling into the same old rut where I have nothing to offer. I know that can’t possibly be true, but the small voice in the back of my mind is beginning to grow louder. Every day I have entered at least one application for a new position, and almost every day, I find another rejection email. The worst is when the company gives nothing but silence. I couldn’t tell you if I was still in the review process or if certain companies have outright rejected me.

I get it. I’m in my thirties, and I realize that most people are too busy to reach out unless they want something. I just wish that I knew what I was doing wrong. Since the beginning of the year, I have updated my resume, I have taken numerous assessments, and still, I am striking out.

I cannot feasibly jump into a writing career at home if I have no audience and no job. My current job is still sucking the life out of me, and my motivation is struggling to be found. I want to make this blog more marketable, but I don’t foresee people wanting to hear me complain. The struggle is real, and I don’t feel like I progress. I can’t decide if I can use my papers from college or if that is considered plagiarism, and I don’t know if community college writing would be sufficient for some of the careers I am applying for.