After letting most of 2020 pass me in a blink of an eye, I was determined to not waste any more time in 2021. My mental health has been weighing heavy on my mind so I decided it was time to see my doctor on a regular basis. No surprise that I went in for a cholesterol check and came out with a prescription for fluoxetine. It’s a generic for Prozac and its been working wonderfully.

My biggest gripe of year’s past has been the incessant compulsive thoughts that have clogged up my ability to think clearly. I can once told one of my ex’s “I just wish there was something I could take so I could stop remembering everything.” I’ve been exhausted by just how fast the memories move through my brain; and how often I dwell on past failures. Fluoxetine seems to be the answer to at least some of my problems. I’m still not as motivated as I would like to be, and I’m still finding it hard to concentrate, but the never ending negative talk has quieted down and made my mind a more peaceful place.

One kind of odd side effect has been the abnormal sweating of my palms. I feel like a weird humanoid slug when I’m at work because everything I touch seems to be slightly wet. It comes and goes throughout the day, but as my energy level increases, so does the dampness of my hands.

Fun fact: your palms sweating is a parasympathetic response that occurs with certain drug usage (like Prozac) including Magic Mushrooms. Ask anyone who has “tripped” and there is a good chance that their palms sweating was their first indication that their “trip” was about to get wild.